Where I Am Right Now

Recently, I found out that my cancer has progressed. After my initial diagnosis and treatment for ovarian cancer, including surgery and chemotherapy, recent imaging has unfortunately shown new metastatic areas, affecting the liver and lymph nodes.

It’s still something I’m processing, and I don’t think it has fully settled in yet. There are moments where it feels very real, and others where it still feels distant.

What feels important for me to acknowledge and to remember, is that I’ve done everything I possibly could up to this point. Every test, every scan, every step, I’ve approached it carefully and with intention. I’ve asked questions, explored options, and followed the recommended protocols to make sure I was making informed decisions.

That gives me a certain level of reassurance, even now.

I’m supported by a medical team I trust, and I feel confident in the direction we are taking. I don’t have all the answers yet, but I know I’m in good hands. I also want to acknowledge my husband, who has been my strongest support throughout this process—steady, present, and deeply involved in helping me navigate everything that comes with it.

That support means more than I can fully express.

Physically, I feel okay at the moment. I’m not in pain, which I’m grateful for. But mentally, there is a lot to take in. Right now, my focus is on understanding what comes next and putting a clear plan in place so I can move forward in a structured and thoughtful way. Emotionally, it’s not straightforward. There’s fear, uncertainty, and sadness but also a steady sense of determination. I’m not looking too far ahead. I’m focusing on what I can control, and taking things one step at a time.

Writing this is part of that process for me. It’s a way to document where I am, to keep track of the decisions I’ve made, and to remind myself that I’ve been proactive and intentional throughout this journey.

I’m doing what I can, with what I have, one step at a time.

Even here, there is still a way forward.